You are acting rude and small, what is your fear? must your wrath be the.......................
....the what? The only way I knew how to deal with the pain.
The pain caused by a sociopath who was trying to drive me insane.
NEVER AGAIN!!!!
You are the worst person I know, full of lies, cheats and games.
I was rude cuz my "husband" took my one family and split it in two.
After 8 years of deception and one long mind-fukd conception.
Conceiving my baby, conceiving the truth,
she was a rainbow from above but she wasn't enough for you.
You never looked at me, always denying me us.
For so many years,
....the what? The only way I knew how to deal with the pain.
The pain caused by a sociopath who was trying to drive me insane.
NEVER AGAIN!!!!
You are the worst person I know, full of lies, cheats and games.
I was rude cuz my "husband" took my one family and split it in two.
You used a form of narcissistic abuse
to make me question my intuition, question my truth
and, like an ignorant bitch, blindly follow you.
to make me question my intuition, question my truth
and, like an ignorant bitch, blindly follow you.
After 8 years of deception and one long mind-fukd conception.
Conceiving my baby, conceiving the truth,
she was a rainbow from above but she wasn't enough for you.
You never looked at me, always denying me us.
With wide open eyes,
you, somehow tricked mine glued shut.
The harm you did,
The harm you did,
I couldn't handle it,
you needed to make it right,
you needed, for once, to take care of me and be the one to stop the fight.
you needed, for once, to take care of me and be the one to stop the fight.
For so many years,
I got the blunt end of your fist,
Being teased for my tears,
Was the worst of it.
I ended up rocking myself to sleep, soothing my fears,
Never alone but lonely for years.
You always made mention that you needed a woman,
A real woman to help you be a fruitful man.
I tried motherfucker, I so super tried,
You always made mention that you needed a woman,
A real woman to help you be a fruitful man.
I tried motherfucker, I so super tried,
I was trying my best,
I still fuckin am.
I was tired, working hard whilst my chi was depleted,
You got high as a kite for all these years, when truth was exposed,
I was tired, working hard whilst my chi was depleted,
You got high as a kite for all these years, when truth was exposed,
shit, I felt so defeated.
I listened,
I listened,
I yelled,
I learned proper love,
I learned proper love,
I tried to do us well.
Each time I would fix one of your complaints about me,
You would pop up with more that needed change, you see.
I was told how wrong I was my entire life,
You said that I sucked much cock, that i was a whore,
You would pop up with more that needed change, you see.
I was told how wrong I was my entire life,
You said that I sucked much cock, that i was a whore,
then one day asked me to be your wife.
I said no out of respect, the question was not taken lightly when asked that day from you to me,
I said no out of respect, the question was not taken lightly when asked that day from you to me,
I should have known though, the control issues should have been plain to see.
When during your tantrum towards our first friend and I,
From your hands objects were first thrown.
I thought you would have loved to turn the corner and see two girls kissing,
I thought you would have loved to turn the corner and see two girls kissing,
Guess not, who would have known.
I should have known, the day you cuffed me,
I should have known, the day you cuffed me,
I had my eyes closed, it was stars then red Id seen.
That day you brought out the fight, stifled the flight,
that forever controlled me.
You called upon hell telling me it was all of my doing.
How many gals, and what about guys, have you, in this time, been screwin.
You did us wrong, so many lies and deceits.
Your love hate passion will forever haunt me.
Now you date a little girl, is she seriously the next luv.??
Damn son, she doesn't look much older than 21.
I know still she ain't the only one.
Its the little, semi pretty young gals you be seeking now.
They are easy prey, they will do as you say, easily swayed
Your actions stem from magic, for your creations you must take a bow.
I will miss you though, miss the love I think, we at times, portrayed.
I wish things were different.
I wish you could stand up and do what had to be done,
Making right the wrong that you did, or didnt.
I wish that we were laying together, on the sands of our beach front house, I wish to be making love in our yard, enjoying together the weather.
I wish youd had the slightest respect for me, I worked so very hard at creating a home for us, and at that time, our amazing babies.
I wish we weren't always, for so much of our time together,
Heartbroken, pain ridden and crying upon our knees
I wish you could have actually taken care of me as though I was the Queen upon my Gold and Silver throne.
I wish time could turn back and I could witness the man I tried so hard to please, the man I once thought Id known.
I wish I didn't have to walk away,
walk away from all my efforts to learn how to play.
I wish that throughout all of this, this chaotic mess, I wouldn't be sitting here calling you out as a porn addicted, Pidhorney loving sick prick dick. Blessbless
One day I wish to have the sort of touch I finally received from you towards the end.
I hope to be kissed and caressed by someone I refer to confidentially as my very best friend.
I wish for us to heal our hearts fully and be able to do as we must,
Which is to bow to the children and carry out great acts of selfless love.
I wish we had prayed together, prayed everyday religiously,
it is Spirit who, into this chaotic love trial, was refused entry.
I miss you everyday. I wish there was more times for me to say,
I love you, Thank you, I am proud of you, what shall we do for fun today?!?!?!!?
I hope, beneath skins surface, you are proud though,
to the paper with a pen my heart and words flow.
I be reading my poetry to crowds and they are asking for more.
I am creating music, to heal my heart and gain strength, and I have an amazing new best friend.
My chastity belts key is lost within the seas depth, I am on a path of exploring this self, I am on a path to mastering my breath.
This sucks ass.
love/hate/lotus blends
So why do I act rude? It certainly takes two. I was trying to be something you insisted I be, instead of insisting on being true to me.
That day you brought out the fight, stifled the flight,
that forever controlled me.
You called upon hell telling me it was all of my doing.
How many gals, and what about guys, have you, in this time, been screwin.
You did us wrong, so many lies and deceits.
Your love hate passion will forever haunt me.
Now you date a little girl, is she seriously the next luv.??
Damn son, she doesn't look much older than 21.
I know still she ain't the only one.
Its the little, semi pretty young gals you be seeking now.
They are easy prey, they will do as you say, easily swayed
Your actions stem from magic, for your creations you must take a bow.
I will miss you though, miss the love I think, we at times, portrayed.
I wish things were different.
I wish you could stand up and do what had to be done,
Making right the wrong that you did, or didnt.
I wish that we were laying together, on the sands of our beach front house, I wish to be making love in our yard, enjoying together the weather.
I wish youd had the slightest respect for me, I worked so very hard at creating a home for us, and at that time, our amazing babies.
I wish we weren't always, for so much of our time together,
Heartbroken, pain ridden and crying upon our knees
I wish you could have actually taken care of me as though I was the Queen upon my Gold and Silver throne.
I wish time could turn back and I could witness the man I tried so hard to please, the man I once thought Id known.
I wish I didn't have to walk away,
walk away from all my efforts to learn how to play.
I wish that throughout all of this, this chaotic mess, I wouldn't be sitting here calling you out as a porn addicted, Pidhorney loving sick prick dick. Blessbless
One day I wish to have the sort of touch I finally received from you towards the end.
I hope to be kissed and caressed by someone I refer to confidentially as my very best friend.
I wish for us to heal our hearts fully and be able to do as we must,
Which is to bow to the children and carry out great acts of selfless love.
I wish we had prayed together, prayed everyday religiously,
it is Spirit who, into this chaotic love trial, was refused entry.
I miss you everyday. I wish there was more times for me to say,
I love you, Thank you, I am proud of you, what shall we do for fun today?!?!?!!?
I hope, beneath skins surface, you are proud though,
to the paper with a pen my heart and words flow.
I be reading my poetry to crowds and they are asking for more.
I am creating music, to heal my heart and gain strength, and I have an amazing new best friend.
My chastity belts key is lost within the seas depth, I am on a path of exploring this self, I am on a path to mastering my breath.
This sucks ass.
love/hate/lotus blends
So why do I act rude? It certainly takes two. I was trying to be something you insisted I be, instead of insisting on being true to me.
